Booming the music like a boss.

Too tell u the truth I'm really heart-broken now. I really have no idea what can I do to make everything better. I keep on thinking for these few days. Is this decision right? I'm so afraid that this would end like that. I'm really sad. I'm crying like nobody's business. Its like im not important to anyone anymore. I thought this would be perfect, this would be like last time. But this sucked! sucked to the max! Tears keep on rolling down my cheek. Is it my fault that everthing turn out this way? I was sick and in pain. I don't see a text from u. I don't get how is this call love and care. Nah, im too tired to talk about anything. Facebook knows everything and i don't. i can say fuck my life.

Well hello there.

Hello there peeps! Long time no see huh. I've been quite busy with my life these days. Having all these exams coming up crushing me like a small little ant. Oh man == but anyways. Exam ended today and well I think I will most probably fail one of my subject o.o okay now. I'm gonna start off my blog with this term priestley's paradox which ive learnt in my management class (come to think of it its quite handy). This term explains that when our technology becomes better we tend t lose our communication skills which is basically true.


anyways, to tell u the truth, I hate people who comes out with you and not look or talk to u but they look into their phones and smile. I'm seriously quite fxcked up with this situation. When you ask people out can u please not use your phone and go on Facebook, instagram or twitter? If u wanna spend your time on your phone what's the point of hanging out together right? People like me hates it, it's not that we don't have a smartphone that's y I'm here whinning about it but I respect people by trying to not use my phone in front of people and try to talk to them more so that they won't feel left out like how I do, Which is, ALWAYS == I get annoyed and pissed but what can I do right? *sighs* actually it kind hurts when u enthusiastically talk to someone and they will be like "wait a, let me post something". Seriously man, wtf, Come on man, it's not that I'm invisible or what right, but I just wanna feel important. At least spend some time on me and give me some attention. I'm going back to jb soon, I just want some attention, that's all. 


Don't talk about the sad stuff, let's talk about something which I didn't do for a 100 years. Watching movie == okay, maybe I'm just exaggerating stuff but really, IT FEELS LIKE A 100 YEARS TO ME @@ watched "life of Pi" today, I can say its awesome! It's a story about an Indian kid who lost everything and ended gaining something. Lol! Contradicting, I know but yea xD It's a story talking  about god. How he got to know got exist, it's really an inspiring story to me. I love it when he say that  there are 2 stories which brings the same meaning but people choose to believe in what they think it's logic. Hmm. Very deep xD I might end up sleeping happily today because of Pi. Somehow he gave me an idea of "never give up hope". Me Likey! So yea that's about it :D go ad watch! It's really nice :)


Not gone sleep on early though. Freaking tired but I feel like spending time w someone ;)

#ps, sorry for not posting any pictures because I somehow can't get the pictures in! Grrr..that's y bloggie turn out to be dull and boring == but oh well,  Nighties people! Loves

Ask me if I miss home

ask me if i miss home. Please, do ask. Never mind. i shall answer it. Well i really do miss home. I miss hugging my mommy, i miss having dinner together. I didn't cry till now, maybe i'm strong enough to make these feelings in me :) I wanna study hard. But i just cant.. I'm too bored of my little space. I wanna go to the library for some fresh air. :) I don't wanna be stuck in my small tiny room. ugh. Its so depressing :( The one thing i miss the most besides my family is my friends. I miss how i can just see them in college everyday. RC-ians! i miss u guys dearly :(

Cousin taught me how to go around KL with the public transport! :D KL is kinda.. disappointing for me tho. I never thought it would be so dirty. There's a lot of crimes going around here. actively -.- BE AWFULLY CAREFUL alright!

Sometimes.

Sometimes, when you're sad you don't feel like doing anything.

Sometimes, when you're sad u just sit there and let tears drop.

Sometimes when you're sad you just wanna be alone.

Sometimes when you're sad just don't feel like talking to anybody.

Sometimes sitting alone and listening to the music just soothes your mood.

Sometimes.. its good to be alone. away from all the noise.

People say their afraid to be too happy today because they know they'll sure be sad tomorrow.

I don't know about them but i don't think that way though.

Just try to be happy everyday :) 

Cause 笑也是一天，哭也是一天 :)

Make Up Work Shop by Kanebo

Hi guys! went for a make up work shop with mommy today! Its a product mommy's been using for like a year? She puts masks for like, every night. *applause* i know i cant XD but the results are wonderful!

Well. went for its workshop today, Kanebo- a japanese company, produces the best silk :)  this is the results of using their product!

this is an non edited photo ;)
oh! my head is in an awkward position but this is the best pic i can get -.- well... erm... like tht lo XD end of post! byebye! :D

Heartfelt words.

i seriously don't know why am i doing here. blogging again apparently. gaaah. I feel so complicated. I know i wanna leave, but when the days being at JB gets lesser i feel so empty. I don't wanna live a lonely life there. i really can't imagine what it would be like to be there... alone. without anyone anymore. Well, some people may say, 'come on, its just KL, just buy a ticket and off u go back home'. I know im not going to a far off place. I know im still in malaysia but why am i feeling so upset? I don't know. will anybody miss me after i leave? I know some will :) especially my prinzies, huiyun and hueiyee. Because they have always made my day :)

Whenever i'm sad or im down i will just give a call to huiyun, we always chatted till our credits went zero. I will really dearly miss those days. When i'm confused and feel like talking to someone, i know who to call, jojo :) She's always the BIG SISTER. she will always come bringing desserts to my hse, she's the person who always inspire me of doing a lot of things ;) Hueiyee, although we don't meet up quite often but you're always included in my bestie list, we seldom meet up but we never had an 'awkward moment' we share everything to each other. You always give me advice on doing this and that *i tot that was suppose to be my job* but... she did it awesomely :D Last but not least, this particular girl. We've known each other for like forever! She's the kid where i will always pop by her house. i will miss popping by your house every now and then. People! u made my life great! You guys filled the blank pages of my colouring book :) I love u guys <3 u will always be missed :) I will just miss everything we did when im in jb. I will miss that whenever i need someone to talk to i can just pick up my phone and call or i'll just crawl over her house and have a good chat. no more, no more all this. I'm gonna live a new life. Walking to an unfamiliar path alone.

I will appreciate the times we've spent together. All my friends :) good luck in your studies.

Getting ready.

I'm really going off soon. Geez, i sound like i'm going to another world or something. hahahahaha! stupid me, its just KL XD but it feel like leaving a place i have lived for such a long time. I know, compared to people who went overseas this is like a small case to them. But everyone have different views right? Well, i'm gonna be a sponge! i'm gonna learn as much as i can. I shall learn those things that i have no chance to learn. I wanna do this, I wanna do that. But do i have the time?

This time round, i've already made the decision to not be look down by others. I must live my life with the confidence I have last time. I don't like being looked down and all. So yea, i'm gonna change the old me to a better me! :) Good luck new me, hello new life! i'm gonna play hard work hard! oh yea!