I'm lost

Things are beyond our control. We desperately need help sometimes but we just don't dare to reach out because we dun wanna bother anyone with our problems. A mask, yes. A mask with a smile is to show everyone how strong you are :) i pretend i don't know, i pretend i don't care. But when i really wanna ignore it, i can't help thinking about it. I'm lost. I'm really lost :/ Please lead me out of this confusion :(

Having a terrible headache right now. Keeping it to myself and bloggie. I should be studying right now, I know I'm wasting time but I'm not in a mood. Crying doesnt means you're weak, It means u've been strong too long. yea, i agree in some parts but, i dun think its suitable for me as i think I'm a weakling :/ I have no courage, no bravery and no confident to do anything. I am a weakling.

Haix, i think i'm a failure. Have you ever made anyone happy? Have you ever make anyone proud of you? Have you ever have thoughts of your own? NO, NO and NO. I'm a useless fool :( 

I should have post this long ago

Just celebrated tiny's bdae yesterday :) and it was so darn fun! i love it! :D too bad we cant celebrate it with u on the exact day. but atleast u enjoyed it :D owh kay, seeing the notes you n jojo posted. i think i should really update about my birthday surprise too XD feel bad about not posting this XD

Here goes, 

during 24.09.2011, i was doing my business as usual. being a 'ye mao zi' i really didn't care about  what time i sleep. teehee. so i went online and do the usual stuff. My phone vibrated. Looked at the phone and saw kaili's message. owh kay, erm. i forgotten what did u guys sent -.- but i know the point is to make sure im not sleeping. well, i replied and continue doing my stuff. i didnt smell anything fishy because i dont think THERE is =.= being stupid, i went to bed and placed my phone aside. miss Kai li there called my phone like 5 times and obviously i didnt pick up. i just ended the call and continue my beauty sleep -.- When the fifth call came, i x boleh tahan and picked up the darn phone. With a calm voice and those sleepy eyes, ''hello?'' and kaili replied '' eh, my mum passed by your hse and saw people protesting outside my house. my eyes finally opened and jumped out of my bed! ran down and wake the whole house up! Mum came rushing up and open my curtains! she said i saw fire! i was like wat the hell!? went to the windows myself and saw 3 idiots standing outside the fence! ;D thn omg omg omg omg! aaaaaaaa~~~~ burst into tears! >< Ran down and tried to open the door. OK -- this directly proves that im a dumbass -,- how can i forgot my pin number for my alarm!? walao eh -,- x blh tahan. well, no one expected this, it happened. my alarm rang like nobody's business. I was jumping up and down! thinking of the pin number D: the 3 idiots outside were looking for a place to hide XD If there's a hole there. i think they'll jump into it w/o thinking XDD okay okay, my fault. but its really funny!! u guys sang a birthday song for me and gave me a BEAUTIFUL collage :) i loved it <3 

and i love u guys to the max! <3

my bdae cake from sg :) thanks jo and cece :D

my sleepy face

Thanks you guys for making an effort to celebrate my birthday, i never ever thought that i could have a surprise party in the middle of the night. i never thought that u guys will go to such extent! :D I know im not good with words. but i really cant find any words to replace i love you guys >< really!! gahhh. u guys are the best :D i'm thankful to have such friends :) thank you!!!

i know these pix are vy vy sha bai. But. these are the only pic we took tht day :( should hv took more ><

hehehe, i noe we look pathetic. BUT ME LIKEY!

protesting!!!

i was in a super good mood, so i let u guys draw my face with chocolates! XD

hahahahhhahaha. i love u guys la!

                                 

after that, we walked back to kaili's hse and sd noob bao home :) well, i noe u guys are tired. SO I REALLY THANK YOU!!! muax!!!! not to da bao of course! XDDDD we had 100 plus for supper because im with 2 going-to-be adults -,- oh well~ in the end! muax! <3

tiny brains

It hurts when you know that the so called friend of course just bad mouthed you. It hurts because you really treated them as a friend. You thought this friendship was long lasting. But you never ever thought that it would end this fast. I don't know if its true. I wished to believe that i'm still a friend to you guys. But i don't think i can. Because words hurt. This indirectly hurt my feelings :(

Is this called back stabbing? I don't know and i don't wanna know. Whoever you guys are talking about. Remember, there will be one day that person will be on top of you one day. Maybe you'll work with her in Her company, you'll never know :)

Haix. i hate this feeling, why are you guys treating me this way :( i don't like it. i wont let words hurt me! i must be strong :) i'll try, but i will :)

You need to turn "I wish" into "I will"

A wish

Everyone has their deep dark secrets. But no one dares to share it. Its 11/11/11 today. Its a special day for everyone on earth :) This day comes after 100 years if u've missed it. Well, I've made a small lil' wish today. i sincerely hope it will come true :) i go online to escape from the real world. Its not because i like it. Its because i feel more free this way :) Escaping reality is good, but don't get addicted to it, because you'll still have to face it. Face it with courage.

Someone told me that its okay to let your feelings out. But i can't. I wanna stay strong. for me, for everyone that needs me. *Well, practically i don't think anyone needs me anyway* oh well. just to make me feel better :D

made a lil' wish today. since its such a pretty date :) i hope my wish will come true.



#miracles happen once in a time when you believe#

a new chapter

A new chapter for u dear bro, aza! <3

being true to everyone is being true to yourself :)

We lie because we're insecure,

We lie because we wanna be better than the real us, 

We lie, because we thought its a white lie.

But sometimes, when you come to think of it,

why should we? 

we're who we are,

don't be ashamed of what you did. Be proud of it.

Because its one of the decision which made u who you are today :)

smile and look for a better tomorrow :)

don't lie. 

 because when you lie, you need 100 lies to cover that lie.

Be who you are, Be proud of it.

We live for ourselves. 

Make the best decisions,

i wish you all the best :)

Something.

things just don't go as the way you want it too.
Sometimes we feel like giving up
or even try to forget.
but we just cant. we tried so hard to let go
but we just cant. how worthless are we.
humans,
a being that is full of compassion.
God created us for good, he created this world for us humans to live in.
But we just don't know how to appreciate what God have given us.
We always demand for more, more than we should have.
But there are limits to it.
if its not yours, God won't give it to you.
Learn to accept it and not crying over some lil' problems.
Learn to grow up,
Learn to understand,
Learn to let go
If its yours its yous. If its not is not :)