holidays! oh yea!

oh yea! selamat hari raya! xD its the holidays! i'm so gonna enjoy my holidays! ;D well, not gonna waste it because after this its the stupid exams == spending my first day online whole day XD going universal studios tmr! oh yeaaaa!!! must be fun!!! :D

happy holidays guys!!!

I thank god for everything :)

began my day with a BIG smile :) had a funny dream and well ,my day started off great ;D
woke up with a big smile ;D and well, off to college i went. I wanted to 'study hard' in the library but somehow hehe, i sort of failed xD because i was like, restless the whole time ==

but i learnt something today :) everyone can be a successful person :) i want to be successful too ;D i will work hard to achieve my goals! :D thank you mr X. u gave me the urge to study hard. teehee~ thank you thank you thank you!!!!! ;D

after that, i suffered for like 2 hours? yea. lying dead in the car == should have brought my medicine out D: but if u need me to sacrifice that suffering time for the happy time later, i will just say i'm glad to xD after reaching home, i race up to my room and took 4 pills! which i almost choked myself XD

slept for 3 hours and went and celebrate su ying's farewell party! woopie!

we played MAFIA and hreat attacked ;D
had home made cendol and BBQ! :D
had a great time with u guys! my taekwon-do pals! we must hang out like this more often! weee hee ;D
u made my day great!

*thank you God for answering my prayers*

Words, hurt

another emo blog today :( i was hoping for a great week. crying? yes, i am. again. i think i'm not as strong as i think huh? grown up? no, i'm not. i'm just an annoying kid living in this crowded world. everyone thinks i'm useless. maybe i am. i really cant think of any good in me.

As a quote goes everyone is special in their own way. i once believed in this fairy-tale lie.
i don't think i'm any special. I've been thinking before i was typing this blog, what's my speciality? i'm not a straight A student, i'm not those good kids who stay at home all day doing chores, i don't do this i don't do that. wow. i suck huh :/

Words from your mouth are just hurting :( i don't like the pain, i don't want the pain. so i learned to ignore. But your words are true. that i'm useless, i'm lazy, i'm everything which is bad. i want to be successful. i'm trying hard to keep up with my studies. But y cant you see it? maybe i'm not trying hard enough. :/

i said sorry after your lectures. all you want to hear is sorry, i've already said it! but y can't u understand?!  id didn't want to cry, but my tears arent following instructions :( they have like, their mind of them own D: i can't control them! gosh! stupid tears! stop it!

ohya, i cant even play the guitar right! wth!? arrghhh! damn, i'm useless. :( i hate myself

Happy birthday yen hui ! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YENHUI! 

today is yenhui's 18th birthday! :D happy bdae gal! this post is especially for u! XD have a blast tomorrow ya~ how was the surprise party? teehee~ we went cheelicious just to buy you that delicious-mouth-watering blueberry cheese cake u liked :) do u know how far is it from RC? u must pay me 车油费啦. but, since u belanja me ur tasty muffin~ u can keep the money :D well the whole procedure was like this: 

1. me, jayme and xinwei told the role of the day that we're gonna put her aeroplane. and then we cabut-ed to cheelicious to get that yummy cake in hand XD

2. rushed to redbox like nobody's business, sweat like hell. and passed the cake to one of the waiters there :D

3. saw yen hui's agog expression. felt soooo good! hahahaha. sat down, grab mr mike ad sang thru out the day~

4. they guys played dice. if anyone of them lose they'll have to accept punishment from the other players. well,  at first it was funny when someone and someone looked deeply into each other's eyes XD *u noe who u are* and the other was the guy who sort of chased after the main role here and there. LMAO. after that. don't feel like saying out. i feel like i was the one being punished! hahahaha. next up. is the guy who used the mic and say ' xxx, i love you'. hahahhhaha! everyone burst out laughing at his actions XD

5. When the guys are tired of playing. me, yen hui and yihao played the dice. guess what. mr yi hao there llost to a fiuny new beginners. hahahhaha. so he had to do what we asked him to do XD

typical BBR

hahahahaha. that's the BBR couple of RC! XD after the disgusting lovey dovey part, cake's up! :D

生日快乐！！

heee~ had a great time with you guys! who's bdae is coming next?? we MUST do this again! hahahaha :D

conclusion: happy bdae bdae gal! hope u had a great time! :D  A simple celebration, a gathering of friends; may this be a wonderful birthday party :) 

changes :/

i'm thinking. why am i online-ing so often these days. *sighs* i thought i say i wanted to kick my bad habits. arghh. who am i kidding :/ well, i ain't emo today. i'm typing this with a hmmm. good mood? bad mood? nah, i'll just stand in between :)

asking myself: what the hell am i doing online? is there anything i can do online? y do i stick on fb so much?
IDK! D:
if i know the reason i won't be here typing this blog ==

A lot of things, not just things. humans? my friends? they changed :( its like i dunno who they are anymore :( why? we were once so called besties. but what in the world happened to her?  she likes to lie. from my opinion she just wanna get some attention == she don't have to do that actually. she can just try talking to more people and try talking to her friends? LIKE ME?! or am i even considered as her friend ==

as the saying goes, you don't lose friends, you just figure out who the real ones are :) that is so correct! *thumbs up* the both of u changed so fast. Just a blink of eye, u're another person. i don't know you guys anymore :/ y must u keep on shooting what i said? did i say something wrong? ah, maybe its my fault.

kind to think of it did i change? maybe all along i was the one changing. is it? yea. i should think like this. i think im the one who changed. changed to a much lousier person? yea. maybe. i'm just can't do anything right :( people change due to the environment. i can't blame them. i think i was at fault too. but. *screams!* no more buts! that's that. no kiddin'

pure randomness:
hahahaha. my new bro! eric! hahahahaha. see. i'm such a good sis XD must appriciate huh~ XD

back to the topic. *thinking*
3 persons have change drastically damn  fast these few weeks. :/ i'm at fault too. sorry.
hope you guys enjoy your days without me k :) i wont be a pain in the butt anymore :)

GAAAH!

gah! im so tired of this old theme of mine! i feel like changing it >< but i don't have any inspiration now. well, that day i was reading back my old diary. hmm, and i realised that i'm actually growing up :) its a good thing right? i don't wanna be childish and all. but yea :) growing up feels great! but, erm. it ain't that great sometimes :/
anyways. i shuld be facinf my book now. not facebook or bloggie D: signing out! bye readers!

emo much?

i cried all day yesterday night, my tears poured like rain. i can't help it but to cry. Well, it makes me feel useless. i can do nothing but cry, but what's the use? I'm a weakling. I have to make some changes! changes to my life! I want to be strong, stronger than ever. :) amen. my eyes was seriously swollen this morning, I really don't have the mood to attend my classes. But when i reach college i saw the liveliness in my classroom. suddenly everything became nothing. It was like i'm living in my own fantasy world. hanging out with my friends and all. Chatting and dozing off in class really helps in releasing stress. *giggles*

I wasn't paying any attention in class today, i was thinking about loads of things that i wish i could share. so i went a little down when our class came to an end :( u sms-ed dabao and lilijie. And when i saw a reply i was super happy :) that's the great thing about having friends :)

well, when i reach home, i really do not have the mood to sit down and study. I don't know why. My mind can't concentrate at all. Lucky thing i went KSL with mr bao. *exhales* thanks da bao :) had lunch and walked around KSL, i finally feel like going home. so, both of us took the bus and went home together. when we reach lilijie's hse, i somehow feel like going to Jusco. I.. really don't wanna be alone. Its scary. So, lilijie, dabao and miss jolin went to tebrau jusco after dinner :D

hey hey :D

u, u and u :)

smiles! 

NG? NOT! :S

i know wat are u asking now, ''why do girls always like to take pictures in the toilet?'' ans: because the lighting in the toilet is always superb XD okay, well, let's continue with the pictures shall we?

out of order? no, our friendship is still going on :P

nice skill photographer!

eleh, i need to adjust this XD

dun stare! i know its a bit blurry, but its still nice rite?

we wanted to head to starbucks but its way to stuffy to have a nice chat there. So, we decided to go secret recipe :)

dabao, are u really tht hungry?

hey gorgeous!! i meant jolin :D

teehee!

lilijie looks cute but dabao bu shuang ==

the ice cream we ordered! :d

chocolate indulgence!

pattern!

before we head home, we took some pictures with our almost-the-same-bags :D
teehee! this is our top model! we call him 'THE BAO'

its 1.47 now, im on the floor typing this blog :) thanks you viewing! guys! i miss you!!!! :D