Words, hurt

another emo blog today :( i was hoping for a great week. crying? yes, i am. again. i think i'm not as strong as i think huh? grown up? no, i'm not. i'm just an annoying kid living in this crowded world. everyone thinks i'm useless. maybe i am. i really cant think of any good in me.

As a quote goes everyone is special in their own way. i once believed in this fairy-tale lie.
i don't think i'm any special. I've been thinking before i was typing this blog, what's my speciality? i'm not a straight A student, i'm not those good kids who stay at home all day doing chores, i don't do this i don't do that. wow. i suck huh :/

Words from your mouth are just hurting :( i don't like the pain, i don't want the pain. so i learned to ignore. But your words are true. that i'm useless, i'm lazy, i'm everything which is bad. i want to be successful. i'm trying hard to keep up with my studies. But y cant you see it? maybe i'm not trying hard enough. :/

i said sorry after your lectures. all you want to hear is sorry, i've already said it! but y can't u understand?!  id didn't want to cry, but my tears arent following instructions :( they have like, their mind of them own D: i can't control them! gosh! stupid tears! stop it!

ohya, i cant even play the guitar right! wth!? arrghhh! damn, i'm useless. :( i hate myself