Tuesday, September 27, 2011

smile, is easier said than done


And yes, i'm trying to waste all my time here again. Not everything goes smoothly everyday huh. When you're troubled, down or even sad. you can't find a soul to share with. So what if u have a lot of friends on facebook? When you're struggling inside you only realise how difficult it is to share something with anyone. We all have our on deep dark secrets. These will follow you into you grave or it will spill one day. I'm struggling with mine. I smile, that doesn't mean i'm happy, I just want to forget everything by laughing and smiling. 'Everything will turn out okay,' i told myself. Stuffing my mind with all these lies. It will never be ok. I never want to share anything with anyone because i need my privacy, i think i can handle it myself. But i'm wrong. I'm wrong about the handling by my own. But i'll try. I won't bother anyone with my problems.

People always say that no one is perfect, but why everybody talks like they know everything? you don't know me, because you're not me. Think before saying anything. Let the messages pass through your thick skull and then only open your mouth. like i say before, words hurt, even gentle words that comes out from your mouth hurts. 

Happy pills? what are those? i don't take any drug. I saw this picture in a website. and i downloaded it. I seem weak by depending on pictures of 'happy pills' to make me happy. Nah, who needs them -,- i'm strong! right? yes. i think so, i guess so, i hope so. I'll remain emo for the rest of today. its 11.14 now. i should be in my bed, sleeping. But i chose to blogged and stay emo. Please, emo-ness. go away tomorrow. I don't wanna bring a sad face to school.

Darn it! I'm having chemistry test tomorrow. Its a pre-trial test *wth* Gonna try waking up early tomorrow. I'm not in a mood for studying. well, all the best i guess?

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