Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Merry X'mas :)

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Merry Merry X'mas everyone! obviously its christmas!! :D well, santa should be here by now -.- Its already 1am D: okay. well, i got a christmas gift from the uncle whom i bought the guitar from :D he said because of my kind-ness. He decided to give me a guitar bag for free! :D As a christmas gift of course! hehe. So happy! Cant wait to hold my guitar, Maybe i can play like Sonia in Jayeslee one day :) That's my Xmas wish btw XD

Friday, December 16, 2011

I think I'm ok but..


I'm just a normal 18 year old girl with normal 18 year old problems. Sometimes i really don't understand what you're thinking, what really is going on in your mind. You can be so kind and out of a sudden, i see THIS. darn! I've already told you long ago that i HATE it when you knock on the door too hard. The sound just irritates me! and why do you always repeat it? You sat i'm inorganized. Look in the mirror honey. You almost the same. Can't you talk to me in a nicer tone? I thought you changed but. This is what i see. I hate the old you! Why are you back?! Why are you making my life so difficult!? Why should you pick on me! on everything!!! huh?! why?! Is it because I'm useless? If you hate me so much why don't you just kill me before i was even born?! I'm not contributing, I'm not a good friend, I'm not a good student, I'm not a good daughter. I'm practically nothing.

I never told you - Colbie Caillat

This song is so sweet! hope u guys enjoy it :)
I know its a lil' old, but its really nice. Not feeling really good now. Cheer up Hui Min! :)



I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What i should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime i close mine
You make it hard yo see
Where I belong ti
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that i still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But i never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Cab't believe that i still want you
and after all the things we been through
I miss everything about you
Without you






Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Contradiction -.-


owh kay, so maybe i just posted some stress free thing yesterday. But i'm eff-ing stressed up today! gawd. Some people just dunno when to grow up! Do the stuff u wanna do yourself! why do u need to bother other people?! maybe i'm included in the group, but does it always have to be me? should i always be the one taking the responsibility? You say u wanted to come out. I was okay with it. But what respond have you given me? Think about it.

I spent so much time, money and patience to make this a success. But is that the attitude i get in repay? You're 18, I'm 18. Everyone has their own life now. We're not in primary school anymore. We have our own things to do, Our own things to complete. Please don't act like u cared. You and your vulgarity. Please change. I hope for the better.

sighs. sorry for all that. was frustrated :/ well.  talk about something happy :) guess what dad say? He finally agreed to buy me a new guitar. THE WHITE ONE! oh my gosh! Thank you daddy :) love u much! <3

Monday, December 12, 2011

stress free !


yes, i'm having a great and wonderful life now :) i get to do what i like and what i love! drink a cup of coffee and read a not-so-interesting novel in a lovely saturday :) owh kay. but that's not the point. :D i really appreciate all these. It feels so stress free! i like my life now. or should i say love it ;)

Well, during this three weeks of holidays i actually learnt a lot from lots and lots of people. How a person breaks another person's heart, how a person changed to a better person, and how money is not everything. The day i went china, my tour guard told me she was a Tibetan. Then what she told us was, the people there like to wish each other 吉祥如意. in their language of course. people there just aren't really obsessed with money. She said as long as everyone is safe, that's all that matters. Its really meaningful. and it will be a sentence that i will always remember.

next up. I'm sooo gonna improve my language skills! i asked dad ''how can i?'' he said '' by reading the newspaper'' pfft, like that's fun. -- i'll just stick to novel. i realised that my english is super sucky! not to say my chinese too. yea yea yea. im gonna improve! it takes time though XD

A2 is starting in less than a week! D: am i scared? yes! terrified and scared. I wish that i can focus on my studies and get the results i desire. :) jiayou!

bought new year shirt! have you? :D

Sunday, December 4, 2011

chillin' at starbucks


Had a venti caffe mocha today. it tasted quite nice. i thought it would be very bitter, but its not as bitter as i thought :) just plain old caffein and chocolate. How i love this day :)