Time when you're alone.

Its the middle of the exam now. 9 more days to freedom :) can't wait! feeling a quite complicated these days. Ask me the reason and i'll give u a troll face then continue with my idk look -.- i really have no idea why am i feeling like this these few days :/ This really affect my mood to study. ugh.

Had stomachache today and yesterday, and wow. IT HURTS A LOT! i feel gas churning here and there. fine. i'm suey -.- Went back by bus today. Thought about a lot of things. I can say that I don't like to be alone today. I feel like going to a place where no one could recognize me and study there. -.- I did study today but not that much tho.

Saw something today, wanted to help but no can do. Sorry. Get well soon :)

karma.

Warning: This will be a very angry post. Don't read this if you're in a bad mood. Please and Thank you

Well, i believe in karma. What comes round goes around. Beware. I'm effing pissed off now. I cant believe you three did all this to me. wtf. I'm very frustrated and i'm super disappointed. YOU! i trusted you, i treated you as a friend and you did all these? wth. Come on la. You said you treasure our friendship and bla bla bla. From what i see, this is just bullshit. ''Huimin, i miss being friends with you'' Your friend asked me to talk to you when u did all this to me. I put my pride down and tell u how i feel and what i think you should do. You give me that 'sick face' and nod your head. I thought you really understand what i wanted to tell you. AND WHAT IS THIS I SEE?! fml. why on earth did i have this kind of friend?! I trusted her, i believed her. and yet. ugh. Just for a moment there i thought you were naive. But this is just plain stupid.

and YOU, i feel like a fool in front of you. I think i've been played. wtf is wrong with you? Did u ever think before doing anything? So what if you're a 4 A student? That doesnt make u perfect. You have a low EQ man. I must say. when i look at you i feel so disgusted. I didn't want to feel that way, but i can't help it since you're doing all this in front of me. Well, all the best to you. I hope you know what you're doing. and if you ever ever say that you're doing all this because of me. I will keep quiet. There's nothing i can say because i'm not showing anything that can make u misunderstand me.

last but not least, me. I think i'm moving on great. I didn't want to hate you. I'm sorry but i think i just did. You finally did something that really disgust me. Well done. Thank you for teaching me how to really choose a friend, Thank you for giving me all this disappointments. I'm sorry i have low EQ, but this is just me. I will change but not now. Everytime i wanna give you the benefit of doubt, you just crushed it into pieces. EQ, please increase. Well, by doing all these makes the both of you happy that's great. Karma will get you back. You guys really need a great fall before you grow up.

I'm hungry!

i'm hungry! i realise im always hungry :( its so frustrated when u see yummy food online and u can sink your teeth in it :( That feeling truly suck. My stomach is raping now -.- i'm sooooo hungry! :( nom nom nom ;'(

Grumpy

I have no idea why am i feeling this way, Its eff-ing suckish. This won't be a good day. Wanted to wake up early in the morning and study, maybe its the caffein (how do u spell that thing that coffee contains?) that make me stayed up all night. The night was peaceful. I liked it. But i got tired and slept off :/ wasn't very persevere -.- fine. Woke up at 9.30 and feel that i have wasted the whole morning sleeping. That's one of the reason that made me all grumpy-up. ugh. Well, I really wanna graduate soon, i wanna live my life. I hate the me now. Faking a smile all day, i find it tiring and not entertaining :/ Plus. i really need to work on my social skill. I suck to the max. I wanna be friends with everyone. I dun wanna have enemies. I just wanna be happy :/ But it seems that there's a barrier that is so THICK, that i couldn't go through. I WILL go through. no no, i MUST. I cant follow my mood all the time right? I really need to be more considerate and control my bad temper :/ oh, i need to change my thinking too. Its way too childish :x I'm serious with all these. I really hope i can be a better person. I hope. 

ugh.

Chem is just not getting into ma' brain!