Grumpy

I have no idea why am i feeling this way, Its eff-ing suckish. This won't be a good day. Wanted to wake up early in the morning and study, maybe its the caffein (how do u spell that thing that coffee contains?) that make me stayed up all night. The night was peaceful. I liked it. But i got tired and slept off :/ wasn't very persevere -.- fine. Woke up at 9.30 and feel that i have wasted the whole morning sleeping. That's one of the reason that made me all grumpy-up. ugh. Well, I really wanna graduate soon, i wanna live my life. I hate the me now. Faking a smile all day, i find it tiring and not entertaining :/ Plus. i really need to work on my social skill. I suck to the max. I wanna be friends with everyone. I dun wanna have enemies. I just wanna be happy :/ But it seems that there's a barrier that is so THICK, that i couldn't go through. I WILL go through. no no, i MUST. I cant follow my mood all the time right? I really need to be more considerate and control my bad temper :/ oh, i need to change my thinking too. Its way too childish :x I'm serious with all these. I really hope i can be a better person. I hope.